restless ripeness

 

Looking for something
Awaiting a shift
Holding my breath
Breathing deep
Restless

I'm ready
On the edge of anticipation
But for what?
Words tumble in my mouth
Like smooth wet stones,
Heavy and undefined

I'm bigger than this
And my dress is too tight
But is seems to be sewn to my skin
All I want is to strip wildly naked
Tear the seams breaking free
And let the sun shine in
Through every crack
Claiming me with light
And life lived
Like a juicy Red bite
Of the biggest boldest blossom
Seducing sensation and celebration
The penetration of presence all the way in

But to rip is to bleed
The harsh yank uproots the seed
And I want no more scars
My battle wound fields have grown hesitant flowers
To reveal raw tender flesh
Patience is required

The fruit comes to ripeness
Bursting the surface
Ready to drop

Almost

I'm waiting
Looking
Breathing, while holding my breasts
My longing a blue flame
Deep, consuming, relentless
Nestled deep in my chest

I open my mouth to speak
Sacred stones fall heavy
The silence is deafening
Dropped to the depth of the sea
Drowning in everything
And all I can hear
..I'm ready...I'm ready... I'm ready...
Echoing

And I sink deeper in
Listening.
Opening.
Breathing.
Patient.

Ready to drop
Naked
All the way in
To my big succulent juicy
Life
And take a bite
that finally
Fully
Nourishes me
Meets me
Receives me

The stones fallen wide
A sacred space
A safe place
For me to bow to me
Heavy
And
Light